A Faith Like Job: November 2012

Monday, November 12, 2012

I want to clear a couple things up. Edward has Freeman-Sheldon Syndrome. What does that mean? Most of the time, I don't know. What will his future look like? I don't know. I would love say that he will be exactly like you and me. Obviously he won't. He is as smart as a tack. Cognitively he is all there and more! He is trapped in his body. Makes me sad. Will he walk? Yes, I do believe he will walk. Every child with FSS is different. There are no two cases the same. What does his life expectancy look like? I don't know. Kinda depends on his spine. I am faithful that the Lord will give him a long and happy life. But what is yours or mines life expectancy? Only the Lord knows. Will Edward talk...normally? Umm...I want to say YES. Is this a muscle or bone thing? All I know is that it is a mutation of the myosin/muscle gene. How big will Edward get? Umm..I am not sure. Maybe 5 feet? These kids are small. Guys...I am living day by day. That is all I can do. Out of all the grandchildren my grandparents have...we are talking 30+...I was blessed with this. I am excited for the day I get to ask Jesus why, what did You see in me, I am nobody but a stubborn loud-mouth!? Jesus has a great and mighty plan. I don't know what it is. Who does? I trust and know that He is good and I am thankful for that. He is always with me and my kids and will never leave me or forsake me. His promises are good. This world is crazy and scary. I am a sinner and fail constantly but I have been redeemed. ONLY by God's grace I am free from this life. So are you and our kids. God loved us enough to send His only son to die for our suckiness. If you have kids that should hit you like a ton of bricks. I couldn't give my kids up to die for anything. All we have to do is believe. Yes. I believe, Lord. I love You with my whole heart and soul. The pain that I feel is only temporary. All my trips to Seattle...the pain and hurt is so deep inside of me. But I choose to take comfort in Your unfailing love because You loved me first. I don't know why but you have knocked on my heart and I am listening, I am yours. "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken." Psalm 62:1-2 "You who live in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, I will say of the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust."" Psalm 91:1-2
Let's lay our troubles down. Humble ourselves. Be free from all of this. God loves us.
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Don't waste a second more of this life.
It is not worth it to not believe.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Post Surgery

It has been about three weeks since my baby has his Gtube surgery. That was a TOUGH surgery. They had trouble intibating him...due to his 'difficult' airway. He had massive trouble recovering. Edward spiked a temperature multiple times in recovery and his heart rate rose. They had to do extra tests and we had to stay an extra night. It was beyond stressful. I think I went into this surgery thinking that since we have been through this song and dance SIX times before that it will be just like the others. NOPE. Surgery will only get more difficult as Edward gets older. It is so emotionally exhausting and stressful. But just yesterday we actually started to use his Gtube. It has taken three weeks for him to get comfortable with his hole in his belly. (And me to wrap my brain around the ooze and the leakage from the hole in my babies belly....not an easy concept to be comfortable with.) I mean come on people. There is a hole in my 18 month old's belly. Not. o. k. His stomach was sewn to his already thin/non existent abdominal wall. Bla
Yesterday we had an eye appointment. Transferred care from Spokane to Seattle. Um, yeah, they think Edward won't even have binocular vision. And he needs to wear a patch for hours in the day to make sure his left eye can get back up to par. AND they mentioned that he might have some ear disease due to the way he holds his head and that it has been reported with other babies like Edward. JOY. That is exactly what I wanted to hear. We shall see though.
Next Wednesday Edward and I go to Bellevue to have a sleep study done. We stay over night and he gets hooked up to wires and monitors while he sleeps. Lord willing!, they will tell us that all he needs is an oxygen mask at night to help him sleep. Lord Willing. After the sleep study we will have yet another round of appointments.