When it rains, it pours. Well, I can see clearly now the rain is gone! Cheesy, I know.

Christmas pic 2011

I was really having a terrible time with myself this past month, month and a half. Just going in and out of pity parties and feeling bad about my situation. I think I was slowing down in my daily routine and I was scared to feel my hurt. I realized that I had been keeping myself super busy so I wouldn't feel the absolute heartbreak that I feel from time to time. (Just writing that makes me cry.) When I have time to think about the reality of my situation, my heart hurts, kinda like a bad breakup times a million. Then, Harv was watching a Veggie Tales movie and I had walked into the room during the 'lesson' part. Bob the Tomato was telling Larry the Cucumber that a thankful heart is a happy heart. hahaha That did it. Snapped me out of it! I have my days and my heart still severely hurts but with time it will heal. God is good and I am very thankful for my beautiful family.
So I have been obsessed with couponing lately. I have become an addict who needs to get stuff on the freap. It keeps me busy.

love this one!

Get this. Just yesterday, I was seriously obsessing over how to get Edward an ipad. I was calling, asking around if anybody had any good ideas on how to get one on the cheap. That morning, I was reading Edward a daily devotion entitled "Grace-filled waiting." Trust God through your struggles and have faith that He will provide. My favorite verse was, "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17 Sidetracked, anyway, so while I was at physical therapy, asking my pt about the ipad, Adam calls me and says that his boss just bought him an ipad for Christmas! Are you kidding me?! Unreal how the Lord worked right before my eyes. What an absolute blessing! Adam was telling his boss how we were saving for an ipad because we thought that Edward would really benefit from some special needs apps on it. Then he went out on his lunch break and Adam finished with a patient and it was sitting on his desk! Isn't that crazy nice?!