Friday, December 30, 2011

When it rains, it pours. Well, I can see clearly now the rain is gone! Cheesy, I know.
Christmas pic 2011
I was really having a terrible time with myself this past month, month and a half. Just going in and out of pity parties and feeling bad about my situation. I think I was slowing down in my daily routine and I was scared to feel my hurt. I realized that I had been keeping myself super busy so I wouldn't feel the absolute heartbreak that I feel from time to time. (Just writing that makes me cry.) When I have time to think about the reality of my situation, my heart hurts, kinda like a bad breakup times a million. Then, Harv was watching a Veggie Tales movie and I had walked into the room during the 'lesson' part. Bob the Tomato was telling Larry the Cucumber that a thankful heart is a happy heart. hahaha That did it. Snapped me out of it! I have my days and my heart still severely hurts but with time it will heal. God is good and I am very thankful for my beautiful family.
So I have been obsessed with couponing lately. I have become an addict who needs to get stuff on the freap. It keeps me busy.
love this one!




Get this. Just yesterday, I was seriously obsessing over how to get Edward an ipad. I was calling, asking around if anybody had any good ideas on how to get one on the cheap. That morning, I was reading Edward a daily devotion entitled "Grace-filled waiting." Trust God through your struggles and have faith that He will provide. My favorite verse was, "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17 Sidetracked, anyway, so while I was at physical therapy, asking my pt about the ipad, Adam calls me and says that his boss just bought him an ipad for Christmas! Are you kidding me?! Unreal how the Lord worked right before my eyes. What an absolute blessing! Adam was telling his boss how we were saving for an ipad because we thought that Edward would really benefit from some special needs apps on it. Then he went out on his lunch break and Adam finished with a patient and it was sitting on his desk! Isn't that crazy nice?!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Blows

The blows just keep on coming. We had a bunch of appointments in Seattle the past three days and each one seemed to be pretty depressing. Edward had xray's of his hips and feet. We met with a new orthopedic doctor, Dr. Mosca, who is a foot expert, and he talked with us about his opinion on his feet and hips. In short, Edward's feet have kinda broken down and the bones are not in the right place and are not formed correctly. He also said that surgery on his hips might not be an option because they are extremely tight. Then we had an appointment with our cranio-facial doc and he was concerned Edward's weight. He is still only 9.12 lbs. Of course we had pt and ot appointments, then our last appointment was with Dr. Song. He thinks that Edward needs an mri done of his spine and hips. (tentatively scheduled for the end of December.) The story with his hips are that we need to make sure that he has an adequate socket or even a socket to begin with. (They formed out of socket at 9 weeks gestation.) So, if his hips were able to move down, they would have a place to go. Does that make sense? And as you know, his spine is progressively getting worse. If it continues like this, then we will need to do bracing right away. SUCK. All this is SUCK. I am seriously trying to truck along with all of these blows. I just want Edward to be ok. I just want him to not have to deal with this stuff. Lord, just let one thing be perfect for Edward. I know God's will is perfect, but I just want to suggest a couple things He could fix that could make His will even MORE perfect. :)


he makes me feel better
In the end, if you would like to pray, which would be wonderful, you could pray that his spine gets better, his feet surgery goes perfectly, that his hips will be able to go into his sockets that are, Lord willingly, there, and that I am able to keep my fake "everything is great" smile plastered on. 
It could be worse. I have tons to be thankful for. No really, I got this.


Thursday, December 1, 2011

Need I say more?!

 

They are a little big, but couldn't you just love him to pieces? I can't get enough of him.