Can I hate life? I feel like I do, right now. Just had a fricking eye appointment for Edward. I was sooooo hoping/praying that we would be spared eye problems. NOPE. Turns out, Edward needs glasses, a mri, and maybe surgery. I really don't want to talk about the details for some reason. Nothing terrible but just don't feel like it. I am fighting off the anger that I am feeling and don't want to stir the pot, so to speak. Man, I hate the world. I guess I shouldn't have expected anything different. Edward does have Freeman Sheldon Syndrome. It's funny. I never see or even think/remember that he has FSS. He is just Edward to me and I LOVE him soooooo much. Last Sunday, I was looking up more info on FSS and I just got sooooooo freaking depressed. It reminded me how much I f*ing dislike/hate that my sweet boy has it or anything for that matter. So, I called on some people to help 'set me straight.' I guess it helped for like a minute or two but it really didn't get the job done. I need a slap/hard hit from the 'humble stick...branch...more like LOG'. I have soo much to be thankful for but can't seem to crawl my way out of this. This eye thing didn't help any. Plus, I feel all alone in all of this. Adam is great and loves Edward to pieces, don't get me wrong!, but we are not on the same page. He is not quite where I am at. So, I feel all alone. (I can say this because he doesn't read this anyways. haha) I will probably regret writing all this bologna but right now I don't care. Whatever. Don't worry, I will get over this. My stupid hormones are just getting the best of me. Next post I will be happy as can be....promise.